Emptiness

it has been quite sometime since i wrote anything here,

now lets see what to write about aye?

lets see what happened this past few days..

nothing great at all!!!

life is pretty miserable with all the things going around..

being discriminated and humiliated in life so badly is not a nice thing to go through..

talking something not nice about the deceased one is not something someone should do!

getting screwed from all side..

wow!

sometimes, god is just unfair to all of us right?

is it a test??

oh come on, for 21 years i have been living in this world,

i think i deserve a break from all His tests,

receiving a message early in the morning that didn't sound quite nice at all

yes it hurt me!

thought that day would get better after that, but nah..it DID NOT!

being called bastard child even after i warned him not to do so!

its really not nice and disrespectful to say something about the deceased one aight fellas,

oh come on, suck it in and move??

everyone has a limit to suck in and move and aight..

when i do that, people take me for granted and lie to me?

make a fool out of me!

think that i am stupid,

well actually i am not..

i can see what you are doing..

i seriously can...

never take my patience, or kindness or anything for granted

because i have a limit too!

i am not going to blame anything or anyone!

lost my trust on everyone!

oh yeah, to all the doctors out there, dun think that you are hell of a great yeah

whats the point of you being called doctor, but acting like a child!

so immature of you aight!

sigh, i wish i could just talk this out to someone!

writing ain't the same as talking..

~rolling stone~

Malaysia Is my mother land, I am proud of it!

Its 31st of August 2010,

the day, Malaysia got its independence,

but i have been encountering with a lot of people on facebook

whom are showing hatred and anger and being racist!

i dun think this is an appropriate act on this beautiful day

this was the day, our father of independence announced independence!

that means no hatred, no more racism no more double standard or what so ever

come on la..stop acting like this

why cant you people just be normal and adapt with the environment..

if there is something that you guys are not happy about,

then voice it out in a good way, in a civilized manner,

not like a animal, i think sometimes even the animals are better than you people out there

i am not being racist right now, but

racism???

i guess its just too much..

live a normal life with normal needs...

if we be nice to people, i am pretty sure they;d realize it one day and that would change them as well..

for those who think you are so hell of great, why dont you guys take over their positions then?

if you are so smart, take their position?

lets see how long can you guys stay there??

you think its so damn easy to run a country?

you think by being racist and buyers,its going to solve the problem??

never push someone too hard..and make the person fall down~

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise, some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies, and
Well I don't wanna live a life, too many steepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well, I'm so tired baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby, don't listen to the games they play
Girl I thought you'd realise, I'm not like them other guys
Cause I saw them with my own eyes, you should've been more wise and
Well I don't wanna live a lie, too many steepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

ladies who cheated on me~

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

LOVE GAME

haha, lady gaga rocks!!
watched a movie today,
Penelope's movie, well she drives me crazy everytime i watch her movie!haha
yeah you guys can say that she doesnt even know that i exist!
screw that!
well, in a movie its always a happy ending..
the love,
the romance,
the happiness,
the peace,
all the happy stuff...
i kinda miss it when i was watching it tho..
why cant it be in reality...
i guess all those stuff on screen stays on screen only!
it never happens in real life i guess..
we always want the sweet romance and lovely moments in life!
thats what i crave for, the most!
will it ever happen again?
i really hope so!
work things out so that comes true, already doing it!
just hang on for the moment,already doing it
give in time,already doing it!
lets just hope for the best right now..
its hurting, yes...
but we gotta be strong and stand our ground and face it no matter what right!

FUCK YA'LL!!!

the title seems a lil too much ain't it
well that's because i am so damn fucking sick and tired with all this!
the cheats and lies which are going on??
WHAT THE FUCK??
look here bitch,
was i the one who came to you?
was the one who made you fall me?
was i the guy who cheated on you??
was the one who lied and took things for granted here??
was i the one who did everything??
FUCK YOU!!! fuck you, BITCH!
you can go on telling people what ever you, you low life scum bag!
let me tell you something today!
from now i am going to change my fucking
nice-humble-patient-get-used-taken for granted-cheated-played life!!!
i have lost my trust on people now..
all you motherfuckers out there!
take me for granted?,FUCK YOU!
cheat me?FUCK YOU!
lie to me?FUCK YOU!
play me out?FUCK YOU!
use the L.O.V.E word to me?FUCK YOU!
treat me like shit?FUCK YOU!
i am this position today because, i was drove here!
i was brought to this position..
i never used to be like this..
but getting cheated all the time..
getting fucked all the time in life!
getting lies in return all the time!
getting played all the time..
getting used all the time!
if anyone of you who even think about doing that to me again, or even if i smell that you people intend to do it, this is what imma do
*vick shows middle-finger!*
and says FUCK YOU!
yes, i have learned a lesson now..
never be too nice to someone!
never care too much for someone!
never fall for people who talk and say sweet stuff and lure to them!
because for what i have done so far in my life, all i did was just give and give and give
and in return all i get is CHEAT, LIES.USE.BETRAYAL!!!!!!
i am serious about this post..fuckin dead serious!
someone told me today, "bro you are too nice of a guy to deserve all this,i know how it feels to be in that position. I myself wouldn't have the strength to be in the position you are in now but sometimes the best thing to do is to MOVE ON, cause you are nice guy and you deserve so much better than this!
well that person is leaving college soon, and i am going to miss her too!!
damn looking back at my life, i am not sure myself where did i go wrong what did i do to deserve all this crapt right?
but i am not going just sit here and grieve and sulk about it!
its time for a fucking change and to think about myself!
the time has come for me to start thinking properly and be really careful in life with people!
i will not let what ever happen to me before to hhapen again my life!
i am saying this again for those of you bitches out there who want to use me and take me for granted, lie to me and lie to others about the true story, back stab me, use me, cheat on me!
tell you what, try doing it! oh yeah! bring it on!
but let me tell you, its not me who is going to get hurt, its going to be you!
because i have been hurt so badly that nothing can hurt me anymore!
i have been hurt so badly and cried so badly!
but NO MORE!!!
FUCK YOU!!!

Mistake